Long time since I wrote or visited my blog. Why today? One of those days when you just want to love yourself. Want to stop doing stuff for others and for a while just do stuff that allows you to breathe – allows you to pause and love yourself.
Being a mommy, brings me so much joy for which I am always grateful. But it also brings along challenges. Challenges like getting over all your insecurities about being capable of handling your baby well, the judgment trap that your mind puts you in when others give you millions of suggestions about how to be a great parent, getting to know and understand this tiny little beautiful being that’s attached to you now, and off course not letting anyone shake you into believing that you’re causing or intending to cause harm to your baby…
There are times when you just wanna breathe. You just wanna leave aside everything- the mess in your room, your baby’s schedule that’s going off track for the day, clothes that need to be folded n kept in place, the lack of space in your room (thanks to the mess)..
And it’s easier said than done! I’m not saying here that this is a unique situation affecting only me! I’m sure every mom, each n every mom would be feeling this way!
And there’s this break point wen you just wanna phase out. You want time to pause n you want to feel your breath, feel that you are alive. It’s not possible cuz your baby needs his feed, the room needs cleaning up, the ‘you-need-to-eat-something-now-for-your-baby-to-get-enough’ alarms are ringing loud and clear. What to do?
Wait for the quiet of the night to welcome you into this beautiful space, where it’s just ‘YOU’. Everyone’s asleep. Just walk upto the fridge and find some chocolate to munch on, just feel the texture of this chocolaty treat melting in your mouth- tell yourself at least ten reasons why you deserve every bit of that treat n as you do so, feel all the love in your heart!
Super mommy- you deserve every bit of this love. Not from anyone around but coming from the core of your heart.
Inspite of having a supportive family who back me up throughout my day, I feel this way. Can’t imagine what single moms do? Hats off to you gals..
And being expressive of your state of mind isn’t an offence. Expression is beauty unveiled in an unusual form. That’s just what I did now, n feeling every bit proud n full of love for myself.
Signing off with loads of relief in my heart 🙂