Every once in a millionth time
I find my way
And that seems
Every once in a millionth time
I find my way
And that seems
A reason why you don’t feel like using the ‘tried and tested’
It works for others, but you’re sure..this one…will not work for you
Everyone,especially your loved ones suggest,
See, this worked for ‘x’ and ‘c’
You must try this, and this time with determination!!!
No one gets you, for a reason!
They’re different than you,for a reason..
They say it,cuz they’re expecting RESULTS
Predictable n stable
Something fickle they assume will last forever
And keep you happy..
Yeah!!! That’s the main reason..
Everyone wants to see you happy,
With money or atleast some fixed income
N wants you Married ( so that u share your joys with another you can call your own)
N then wants you to have kids..
How can you not have them??? (They say)
N if you’re a guy, they want you to have a tension free job
N if you’re a woman, they wish that you be able to cook the best dishes
And feed your spouse and kids, n family
If you’re a kid,they want you to do well at school
And then at college, probably ENGINEERING ( they think it makes you happy LOL)
And then they wish you have a stable job..
And spouse n kids….hahahaha
What ever happened to creativity and imagination..
Well, they’re our loved ones, and probably
The only way they know to love is
To worry about our joys and happiness
And probably see us ‘settled’ in a way they know to be ‘settled’
That’s them.. and we love them
With our rebellious hearts, in rebellious ways..
They may feel, we care less
But that’s how we care!!!
We care more by caring less..
That’s the only way we know
To bridge the gap
There was a time, gaps were bridged by
Putting oneself last
And putting the other first
That’s an unknown for the new generation
They know how to care for everyone, but they must come first
Cuz if they’re full and overflowing,
They have a lot to pour out from..
Emptiness is a cliché
Or may be not!!
It’s a way of knowing what’s whole..
It’s our way of experimenting
Knowing empty so we can know full!!
Know emptiness from up close, hungrily demanding abundance..
So loud and clear, that the call is answered..
And look for signs that acknowledge our abundance
Like the air we breathe..isn’t supplied in tanks..
It’s out there for us to inhale..
Like the oceans endless
Our eyes tire, but the oceans don’t..
The earth, accommodating all of us lovingly..
We’re a happier folks like the ones before..
And the ones before that n the ones before..
The news says otherwise and I guess that’s their job
It’s their job to seek chaos as efficiently as ever
And veil the well being
But for us, who never read
The world is still a happy and peaceful place
That starts and ends at our desk, or in the quarter of our room
But most importantly
Radiates out of our heart
The desire to be ‘whoever’ we choose
Irrespective of the ‘settling’ demands of our loved ones
We carefree souls
Trust more than our hearts admit
Love knows no control
It simply exists and allows
Allows all well being that exists
N let’s it grow
Everything is wellbeing
Even the perceived lack of it..
That makes it real easy for us to choose..
Whatever we choose,is wellbeing..
Whether perceived or not..
And if you’re smarter, you’d rather choose well being itself
than the lack of it..
As I’ve heard ‘you are so free that you can even choose bondage’
And it would be granted as freedom..
It’s too simple to be decoded
N it gets as complex as can be..
Enjoy the meaning you find in it..
And don’t bother to match it with others..
It’s meant to be ‘yours’ the way you found it
Is it really our true nature to exist in ways that make us likeable?
I think not!
We may have gotten ourselves trained, generations after generations, in the most undetectable manner, to exist in a way that gets us rave reviews..
It is funny how the streak of ‘being me’ as opposed to being liked just kept getting stronger n grew up on me!!
As a girl in school, I remember feeling awkward after a bad haircut (read super short) n yet told myself how it would grow back..
I’ve actually cut my hair short so many times in my life, just for that thrill of telling myself, it’s okay!!
It’s worth it to experiment rather than play safe!
It’s worth it to have lost my likeability for some be*ability..
I know I’m still that girl! Id like to think that I care rarely about what people think of me. Very few get me!! N times when I try to convince people why I do what I do, I seem insane..
It’s not possible for this world to get me!! Not in a sad way.. but a super positive way..
every one is busy figuring their path! Some are trying to work out a likeable path, some the be*able..
n it’s not possible for everyone to get me! Cuz their work is to get them self..
I get me!! N thats enough..
Even when the world wants to know if I completed that course I was pursuing (yes! I did!) n what I achieved after finishing it (nothing to be precise in your words)
What I got???
I got the strength to be this crazy girl (not woman), who desires to be a jack of all trades, cuz one trade for one life seems boring..
I wanna paint, I wanna sing, I wanna play with my son, I wanna wear dungrees, I wanna teach others how easy painting is, I wanna be a super coach who allows others to BE rather than BE LIKED..
I wanna ace at insuring people’s lives with life insurance, I wanna travel the world, I wanna trust this path..
I wanna be in ever connection with my highest self..
I wanna be Shraddha! I wanna be Aryaa
Shraddha makes mistakes, n Aryaa accepts them..
Shraddha feels insecure, feels less confident! Aryaa holds her hand, tells her it’s okay!
I am both! I feel insecure at the slight drop of a hat, just as easily I feel strong n forgiving!!
The more I reach out to my loving self, the one that lets me look silly, the one that lets me take ‘too high the risks’… the more I allow, the more I feel love towards others..
N at no point am I totally one hundred percent of either!! I am always this eclectic mix of proportions, of this girl I used to be n the girl I am becoming..
N I am in love with who she is becoming..
Fierce in her commitment to choose this weird multi passionate, multi career life..
it’s people’s work to tell u,that ure a fool to believe that u could be successful at multiple businesses when ure not even breaking even at one..
it’s your work to keep your alignment, n keep choosing this fine tuned, accurately curated life for yourself, irrespective of the flawed measurement of success..
Cuz in the end, you get to say ‘this is exactly how I wanted it to be’
Ever wondered, how we got this big, grew up into being who we are today??
As far as I remember, a moment at a time,a day at a time, a year at a time♥️
N my dreamy studio that is at the center of my life (with my family) started with tiny wishes..
Wishes of being crazy for ‘creating stuff’♥️ be it cards, notes or posters or whatever..
N I wanna thank all those tiny wishes that have grown into me dreaming of having my STUDIO 😍
One such tiny wish was this zig zag scissor,now a proud resident of my studio😘😍
My mom used to have one which was only used for fabric! N I loved how a zigzag could be created with super ease..
So one day, back in 2011, after work, I went to Crawford Market, (in South Mumbai) which is the market for kinda everything under the sun..
N this was my first buy! It was ‘expensive’ I remember with respect to how much cash I had in my wallet, n yet I chose to buy it.. n it has served me super well..
All those cards I’ve made, n all the crafty stuff I’ve created so far, I’ve always loved to use a zigzag edge ..
It reminds me of how special I am (just like everyone else) without really doing much..
N I guess this was one of the first family member of my ‘dreamy n unplanned, unintended studio’ ..
Not to forget the hoards of paper I still love to gorge on, n my open heart that is super excited to create every time I’m inspired♥️
This is how my new, ‘recently moved in’ garage studio looks like♥️
A dream catcher to keep the ‘I cant’s’ away♥️
Nurturing this one tiny belief can get us grow into a big venture..anytime
Baby steps for an eventual huge leap♥️
My new studio, bubbling with energy, gearing up for me to start using it ❤️
Thinking about good times❤️
Three- person hugs from the two most handsome guys in my life❤️
Dressing up for the day ❤️
Accessories that keep coming into my life, n also getting lost, making space for more 😝
My beautiful feet, n beautiful toes, that gimme a chance to play with colours 🎁
GOT time with my hubby❤️
The blank canvas boards that literally make me feel hungry for some studio action❤️
De cluttering my space/ home regularly 😍
My weekly coaching sessions with two extraordinary coaches❤️
Watching movies solo, on Netflix❤️
When my son asks me for hugs n keeps telling me repeatedly how cute I am 🎁
Asking for hugs n getting them instantly😍
Time out with nature🎁
Sitting on the floor,gearing up for some hot oil for my hair kinda massage ❤️
Ekaansh’s school 😍
Thinking about all the art I’ve been able to create n all that’s on the way 🎁
Bath time with Eko❤️ (toy tea time)
Tea time with family ☕️
Movies on tv with the rest of my family🎁
Wynk music 🎶
Colours around me 🌈
A good night’s sleep 😴
Singing in the shower 🎶
Long drives 🚗
The general weather in Mumbai 🌞🌤☀️🌩🌥⭐️
The gift of Languages 🤘
How I look 😍almost all of the times❤️
The way I live my life😍
Being a free spirit 🦄
Thinking that people who choose differently are allowed their choices (by themselves most importantly)
Artists across the globe whose works I get to see n get inspired from 🎁
Remembering all my loved ones who’ve passed❤️
Endless attempts to roughen the challenges
All for a ‘frivolous’ thrill
Easy to make ‘tough’
A way of life
and pretend we are someone else
cuz who we really are, is too simple
Sometimes all we need
is an easy catch
Our flawed beings
can simply be
patchy and honest,
blunt and blotchy
cuz gravity doesnt judge
the outpour drenches all alike
all the masks finally
getting what we truly want
can never be this ‘steep climb’
cuz what we deeply desire
is outpouring with misconstrued ease
To all my dreams,
galaxy sized and simple tiny ones,
on the brink of manifesting,
I am right here..
To all of my paintings,
future ones and the dones,
closest to me, closer than any human being can get..
I am right here..
To all of my desires,
devoid of logic and reason,
my true gifts of being alive..
I am right here..
To all of my joys,
in baloons and bubbles
and the shades of green around
I am right here!
To all those beautiful people,
lives of whom will completely alter
after crossing paths with me,
I am right here…
To all those hearts,
dreaming of the ‘impossible’
never giving up on them
Im right here…
To the aunthenticity,
of being ‘me’,
irrespective of all the labels..
thank you for finding me
To this fun loving roller coaster
that disappoints only to bring out the perfection,
more clearly each time..
I am right here..
To all the ‘crazy’ ‘dreamers’,
holding on even to the last atom of their vision
you’re not alone
cuz Im right here..
Ps: I am right here YOU ♥️